Friday, May 17, 2013

The In Between


Most of the time it's difficult to know that we're all human
No one is completely good or bad, but all we see is what we want and nothing more
It's all black and white until you're presented with the grey between
So if all these people aren't as they seem, what is trust even for?
All of this makes withdrawing from society seem so safe 
I don't want to take the time to see beyond all the evil and the cruel
If there's a reason behind it all, then how do I find the middle ground unharmed?
And how can I tell who's the one in control and who's the fool?
Sometimes it's just too hard to continue with hope in sight
How should I interpret the grey behind all of these cold staring eyes?
But we're all victims of manipulation and manipulators in defense
We're all humans with facades, so when would I define what's real and what's the disguise?
And when we're fooled it shouldn't come as a surprise 
Be ever cautious of those who are true, and those who tell lies

And after all of this I still can't go around assuming
Even through betrayal, remember we're all human
The black and white doesn't exist but the in between is just so hard to see
And as I'm judging all of you, all along you've been judging me
All I want is to be free, to trust the world that I cannot avoid
Black and white is easy, and the rest is just to fill a void 
Even if on occasion I feel empty inside 
Just like all of you, the grey, the dark, I attempt to hide
Can someone tell me what's the point if I can't see the intentions as they are?
The truth I want so badly just seems too be so far
I'm not alone in despair 
So why do I still feel like there's no one to be trusted out there?
This all just speculation, maybe I'm the one who's not to trust in the end
I'm the one who's attempting to hide all I have, and that's the message that I send
Maybe I'm the one to which the world should precede with caution,
Maybe I'm the in between to fear
But who am I to tell you what to believe
And trusted or not, it's trivial, I'm just another life existing here
I could tell you anything, it's up to you to find the truth
And if there isn't any who's to say, I'm the only one who would know
So really what's the purpose of even trying to decide
I've got nothing, neither good nor bad, to show

The intentions of every single one of us is all a blur
It just so happens we exist and have no choice but to decide alone what's real and fake
Though it seems unfair to be so scared
And all that counts is not what we give, but what we take
So I choose to reserve myself, and trust no one for my own heart's sake
Even if I hide it all, it's my choice alone
And I will deal with the consequences if I happen to make the mistake
Of excluding myself and causing my own demise
So none of this matters as long as I wear this disguise

Words are cheap, but words are all I have   

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Starting Over

I haven't posted in a few years, so consider this post the first of a new blog. I will update more soon.